🌈 WHAT ARE YOU ON?

I've been going back and forth about my university degree decision. Is it what I want to do? Is there something better I could be spending four years and £36,000 on? Pre-Paris trip, I was absolutely on the fence with no idea of what I wanted to be doing. I love French... but I also love photography. Both take up different areas of interest in my brain and both make me equally happy in different ways. I like that with French I'm always putting more knowledge into my brain about how to talk someone's ear off in a different language. But I like that with photography I can always challenge myself and go in so many different directions of creativity and imagination. I also like how hands on it can be. The building of mood boards and research that is then translated by shutter noises into final photos which strike pride into an artist. Pride and learning comes with both. And that's where I'm stuck. Or where I was stuck.

Post-Paris trip I decided that after walking around my favourite place for three days it was the only place I wanted to be. The only place I could see myself. Therefore my only option must be to go to Paris in September to study French. But is it that I want to study France and it's language, or just that I want to be in Paris as soon as possible? I still don't know. 

I've spent the day editing photos and manipulating colour. Inspired by the wintery blues, I just wanted everything to be bright and overwhelming. It reminded me of a particular aesthetic, called 'Acid', that I used to see on tumblr when I was in year eight and knew how to code. Probably wanting to revive my coding abilities, I put together a selection of photos, including some of my own and the words "What are you on?" came to mind. I was asked this by one of my beaut friends this week over messenger, because I was sending fun, lively messages as opposed to my usual messages, which apparently must be cynical and sarcasm-fueled. Despite it being a tongue-n-cheek saying, it made me think about what I was on, in the sense of projects and being switched on to things that I'm doing and developing. 

I realised I've been on nothing. Just working and shopping and wishing I was being creative. Wishing I knew which degree was right for me. And I know if my parents read this they will be rolling their eyes because they know which one I should pick. But I still don't, and I don't really have much time to be this indecisive. But if you know me, you know that's exactly what I am. And right now I'm not creating, fuelling, producing enough to be proud of myself. But I want to be. And hopefully I will be, if I could just make a decision.

What are you on?

G.

Photos by Georgia Stead and Pinterest

I've been going back and forth about my university degree decision. Is it what I want to do? Is there something better I could be spending four years and £36,000 on? Pre-Paris trip, I was absolutely on the fence with no idea of what I wanted to be doing. I love French... but I also love photography. Both take up different areas of interest in my brain and both make me equally happy in different ways. I like that with French I'm always putting more knowledge into my brain about how to talk someone's ear off in a different language. But I like that with photography I can always challenge myself and go in so many different directions of creativity and imagination. I also like how hands on it can be. The building of mood boards and research that is then translated by shutter noises into final photos which strike pride into an artist. Pride and learning comes with both. And that's where I'm stuck. Or where I was stuck.

Post-Paris trip I decided that after walking around my favourite place for three days it was the only place I wanted to be. The only place I could see myself. Therefore my only option must be to go to Paris in September to study French. But is it that I want to study France and it's language, or just that I want to be in Paris as soon as possible? I still don't know. 

I've spent the day editing photos and manipulating colour. Inspired by the wintery blues, I just wanted everything to be bright and overwhelming. It reminded me of a particular aesthetic, called 'Acid', that I used to see on tumblr when I was in year eight and knew how to code. Probably wanting to revive my coding abilities, I put together a selection of photos, including some of my own and the words "What are you on?" came to mind. I was asked this by one of my beaut friends this week over messenger, because I was sending fun, lively messages as opposed to my usual messages, which apparently must be cynical and sarcasm-fueled. Despite it being a tongue-n-cheek saying, it made me think about what I was on, in the sense of projects and being switched on to things that I'm doing and developing. 

I realised I've been on nothing. Just working and shopping and wishing I was being creative. Wishing I knew which degree was right for me. And I know if my parents read this they will be rolling their eyes because they know which one I should pick. But I still don't, and I don't really have much time to be this indecisive. But if you know me, you know that's exactly what I am. And right now I'm not creating, fuelling, producing enough to be proud of myself. But I want to be. And hopefully I will be, if I could just make a decision.

What are you on?

G.

Photos by Georgia Stead and Pinterest

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posted by G . Saturday 2 December 2017 .